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2011-01-18T18:08:00.003+08:00

Been like years since i update this blog.. gonna update quite often from now on.. things doesn seems to be going right in some way, i cant say what went wrong but something is wrong.. i didn know we both will drag it till so long.. 27 more days, seems so far so far away... is just like something that is not within what i can reached. If you know how important you are to me, i believe you will understand how i feel.. Yesterday, waited for you although you didnt ask me to wait..i choose to wait even when i dont know whether you still in school or not.. But in the end, i still managed to see you for that few mins :D hours of waiting doesn seems to matter anymore le:D something bad happen after that, but never mind:D i am ok with it le.. today, got appointment with the doctor so went to see the doctor straight once after i leave school.. before that, he seems to be angry with me so i leave the school immediately in to catch up with him, thought of going over but scared that it might be awkward and maybe he is still angry with me so i choose to stay at a side see him get on the bus and leave.. i regretted at the moment when he left, if i was brave enough to walk over, things will get better for us le:( sorry sorry :( i tell you there is no such need for you to treat me important i just wish that when things happen i will be the first person that came across your mind(: it will be enough for me le :D hui yee told me that i might be giving out and giving in too much for him.. maybe i really did but it doesn concern me whether in the end i am still the one that is giving out, i just want you to be happy.. dont worry, i will be more understanding towards you (: pardon me,if there are times where i fail your expectation :( now, i just wish that between us everything will go smoothly and the day will come (:

Falling in love with you wasn what i want,
but it was beyond my control that the feeling grows on you.
If i could turn this whole thing back to the beginning,
I will....
still choose to know you,
to like you and
to love you(:
- dont tell me you are leaving right now..

2009-12-30T23:32:00.003+08:00

2010 is coming,wish everyone the best in the year 2010,put away those unhappiness,regret and anger for this year,may 2010 be a year that is filled with excitement,surprise and happiness,let it be a fruitful year for your (: especially to all my SEC 4 PA seniors,take good care of yourself kay (:
this is to Agnes Chain, Hui Yee and Jasmine Hu,don worry i will be strong de,wont break down easily anymore,i promise,the tears drop down for next year will be much more lesser compared to this year..thanks for standing beside me in times of need,your never fail to be there for me all along,Thanks (:

since the start i know that the person wont be me,
so from now,i wont be that person anymore.
i will be the one that will be standing by your side
quietly...

2009-12-26T23:47:00.007+08:00

Banana is not free and sick to update the blog so i shall help her to update. :) well,dunno what to update so go online and check for the horoscope compatbility,help her check for all the horoscope and found out that the most horoscope she is most compatbility to is cancer,believe it,is super spot on,hahas,try out if u got the time k?this is the results shown,

With a Pisces and Cancer combination it could be quite easy for both of you to slip into a state of ease and complacency. You offer each other so much in the way of emotional compatibility! This is because your star signs are both of the same element: water. This connection will be obvious the moment you lay eyes on each other.You’ll instinctively understand each other. You are both caring and supportive, and usually you’ll just know what the other’s needs are.
You are both also very intuitive, and you’ll be very much in tune. Feeling is the operative word in this relationship.
Both of you are very flexible, and sometimes your lives seem to have little or no direction.This is exciting, but it can also be confusing when you get together. Your relationship requires firm grounding and a very clear direction if it is going to rest on anything more solid and long-lasting than sentiment.Pisces, you are a psychic sign; Cancer is also intuitive, but expresses it in a more practical way. Cancer is family-oriented, whereas you see the human race as your family. Your love is universal: it extends beyond family and friends. This approach is too abstract for many Cancerians to go along with. There is, however, a strong bond between you, because you can stimulate the emotional and intuitive side of Cancer.Cancer is a very moody sign, and they can sometimes hold grudges.You are also rather moody, but you forgive and forget slight hurts and misunderstandings more easily.Feeling, touching and demonstrating your feelings is another thing you have in common.And consideration is something else you both seem to have in great measure. Sexual sparks will fly when you two connect. You are hugely attracted to each other and your physical relationship will be wonderful and extraordinary.Cancers born between 22 June and 3 July have the powerful influence of the Moon affecting their inner and outer lives.They are sensitive, and highly volatile, so they overreact to even very tiny issues. This will bug you.
Your best match with Cancerians is with those born between 4 July and 13 July. There will be tremendous love, compassion and warmth between you.This is a caring relationship that will satisfy you deeply, and it has excellent long-term prospects. Cancers born between 14 July and 22 July will give you a good sense of unity; you’ll find you have a lot in common.You’ll immediately be comfortable together, even doing boring old day-to-day activities and just hanging out.

to banana:rest well and get well soon. The following is the link to the website for the horoscope. http://www.astrology.com.au/compatibility/compatibility.asp

2009-12-24T00:42:00.005+08:00

Back from SC camp,overall the camp was fun(: wont forget what Mrs De Souza told us,respect is first being taught then earn.Told Jing Hui alot of things during the camp,guess she know everything le,Natalie,Lynn and Ling Yi also know le,Jing Hui tell me to go for it but i see no point in doing so cause deep down I already know what will the outcome be,so i wouldn,1st day of camp cant sleep actually, whole mind was filled with grass Jing Hui should know what am i referring to,right?hahas..2nd night better,managed to sleep after chatting with Jing Hui for a while,grass did not appeared as much as the previous time,hopefully it will keep on fading,i don want to hold back to everything anymore,is time to put down on what had happen,no point clinging onto it,is tiring me out.After the camp end susposed to hav a meeting with my group members cause after this camp most of them did not want to come back to school for any more meeting le,but cause somethin happen, I walk away,sorry for losing my temper,i know your are tired cause i am tired as well,what more when i am sick and on medication,nobody wish to stay back after the camp,that goes the same to me as well,asking your to stay,I myself have to stay..I am not blaming your or anything,I know that your really tried and put in your best in the game that you are in-charge of,i appreacaite it,therefore,is always great after each and every meeting with your,this might be the last chance for all of us to work together as a team le,so hope your can take the remaining time to know more about one another,is really a pleasure working with your as a team(: once again.sorry to Hao Yuan,Sofrie,Nazif,Ling Yi and Lynn for what happen today..

This goes to all the game master; Ansari,Hao Yuan,Tisha,Natalie,Lynn,Fathima,Sofrie,Nazif,Kenley,Farah,Yi Na and Ling Yi..thanks for all your hard work for the past few weeks or months,thanks for making the effort to turn up for all the meeting,thanks for putting in your effort in things that you do,thanks for co-opearating with me all along.Most importantly,the sec 1 orientation is coming soon,during the sec 1 orientation you will see how is your effort being paid off from all the sec 1,have more confidence when speaking/talking to the sec 1 kay,and also remember to have more confidence in yourself,don only oversee them and conduct the game but also enjoy the procedure that you go through with them during the game.Lastly,wish your all the best in carrying out and conducting your game(:i believe everythin will turn out to be good for your,(:
is a pleasure for me to be the in charge for this group,(:
no matter what happen, to me, your are great(:

i miss everyone in aqua

2009-12-20T23:54:00.009+08:00

Back from cruise for the 8th day le but somehow i still not bear,hahas maybe is because we had too much fum time with one another le,especially with shi han(the joker which always make me laugh and cheering me up)and Jing Tian(my best buddy)and of course alot more;Ruo Xin,Jie Ning,Casandra Tong(my twin sister)...thanks for taking care of me during the trip when i was very sick,some of ur saw how I crawl back to my room right?thanks for the concern from every one of your..(: hahas,having gathering with them on the 28th,miss them alot.don know whether euu will see this or not but this is for you SHI HAN,thanks for your concern,i apppeaciate it alot,i feel much more better le..have been msg-ing you this few days realised you can be rather serious as well de,is quite different from the you which i know during the cruise trip,you are the 1st guy I know in our team right? (:hahas,euu give me alot of memories that was really funny..thanks thanks,lastly i promise you i wil take care of myself de,will also try to cut down on the 'daily workout' which I have kay? hahas,only you will know what is that'daily workout' i am referring to,ah gua,you take care too(:

Shihan and me(:

Jing Tian and me(:

Wei Lie and me(:

--is time to move on and let you be where you are susposed to be,will you be
happier like that?

2009-12-07T16:13:00.004+08:00

havin meeting with my team members today(: ,it was enjoyable and heart warming whenever i see them working together as one and helping one another, we also test out the game today to see whether is this game possible to carry it out,it prove is possible(: budden then alot of trust and teamwork is needed for one another to make this game possible and fun, cause the 1st person will not be blind folded she/he will give us instruction to follow,then she/he will tell the 2nd person ,the 2nd person will tell the 3rd person and so on..so we must really trust the person in front of us alot,it will surely bond the class together,because me and my team members was bond even more than before after this game,it was a really nice and wonderful time working with them despite one ppl who will always make me angry,hor SOFRIE? but is ok..hahas..(: tomorrow will be havin meeting as well,guess this will be the last meeting we having le,so by tommorow everyhtin must be settled,as i will be away on the 9-12december for learning trip with the school on cruise,away from 13-17 cause i am going back to my HOMETOWN (:will only be back on the 18,then don intend to have any meeting during that time as leadership camp is coming soon,want them to have enough rest and time to spend with their family so i shall not hav anythin on that 3 days before the camp start,actually i also want to spend time with my family,during school days time was for all friends so holiday shall be with my family(: wll catch up with my bible once i am in my hometown (: hey people, enjoy the last few weeks of your school holiday before school started... (: bye bye...

I miss TISHA HAMTARO (:

2009-12-05T15:08:00.006+08:00

was busy-ing rushing to complete the inter class game thing(mass game) and send them a email each so didn have the time,wooh,it was really not easy being the sort of overall in charge but since they assigned me and entrusted me with this role i shall be responsible and complete the task with my best efforts and ability,thanks for givin me this rare chance to learn(: ..today is my cousin birthday,going his house later to celebrate for him..he will be so so happy to see so many presents(:hope he will grow taller soon,god bless you(: JCSD,read ur blog today,i had just realised how much hurt have i brought to you,sorry,i didn mean to,it wasn my intetion of hurting you,i wasn playing with you since from the start,i thought that it should be easier for you to let go of me,but is not easy for you at all,sorry for making everything so miserable for you,sorry for making you feel that worse during that time,sorry it was all my fault,sorrry for making you to fall so deep on me,sorry for saying all those hurtful comments to you during that time,i only think of sayin those things might you in letting go of me i didn thought that it will hurt you so deep,sorry was never enough but there is nothin i can say other than that,i promise you i will always be there for you,listening to you as a good friend of yours.....sorry ):if i wasn there, love at first sight wont occur....sorry...

this is a reminder to all my hardworking and wonderful team members which consists of;Hao Yuan(:,Sofrie(: ,Nat alie(: ,Daniel(: ,David(: ,Nazif(: ,Yi Na(: ,Fathima(: ,Ansari(: and last but not least Kenley(: .. pls do rmb that there will be a meeting on 7th dec at 8am in school,attire will be any school related tee(: if you are unable to come for this meeteing pls do tell me,shah or sofrie,so that we will take note and update you on what is happening..thank you...

♥Happy beloved birthday to ANSON SEETOH JUN JIE...♥

2009-12-04T21:22:00.005+08:00

How i wish i didn go for that trip,so i wont get to know you deeper which cause me to fall deeper in...i regretted,i wish i could turn back and let just stop at the beginning, when we just get to know one another,is more than enough...

---I cant't believe that we've come so far away, use to share so much with you and seems like it came to a close, we've come to the end of road,Maybe we need to clear are thoughts...hopefully one day all the misunderstanding can be cleared cause deep inside my heart euu will always be my best friend...

2009-11-23T01:55:00.002+08:00

This post was for Crystal Tan Rui Qi, take care of yourself kay, don stay up till too late everyday le,if not the chances of recovery is not very high...most importantly,rest well.hope you will get well soon :D... remember great grandma aunty lucy will bless you de :D...

2009-11-23T00:19:00.007+08:00

Finally all the misunderstanding is cleared,thanks for making the effort to explain everything to me...relieved(: ..got the ans for the question which i posted in previous post le, everyone was right,but how come i just keep on standing at where am i standing now,ask sofrie to move on seems so easy but when he ask me whether have i move on,i am stun,i know i have not move on because all these while i am firm of where do i want to stand,not even think of moving on once before,is it good for being so firm?i dunno,but i only know i got to stay faithful towards the decision i make...someone should know how i feel deep inside(: those who susposed to give me support make sure you do cause i am now looking at a positive side,thinking on a positive side,what is left is the support from your...(: AB was equally marvelous thanks for being there with me whenever i need your..thanks (= ( your will always be deep down inside my heart no matter what...) thanks :D

- so it was never easy to forget one person, completely.............

all those moments will be lost in time, like tears in the rain...

we are so close yet so far....

2009-11-20T00:56:00.008+08:00

susposed to turn in early as i have drills practise tommorrow but somehow i cant.. mind thinking through alot of things..memories that shouldn flash back did flashed back,and to be true i am still stuck,stuck in everythin that you have given me,so letting go was actually not that easy,more than 5 months le, maybe i need a longer time bah... haix haix haix... optimistic am i, but why is the answer still so disappointing,any reason?hahas told geoffrey to let everythin flow but itself le, no use forcing (= ...

Been thinking through this question as well; what if A and B like C, but C like D,... one day will C change and like A or B?? guess nobody will know the answer except her....

- wE aRe So ClOsE yEt So FaR....

sometime when i feel that we are so close,you somehow move back,
i thought we are possible...
i know there is soemone else inside you le,but i am struggling...
will you be happy for the choice that you have make?